So I’ve been missing in action for a little while. Believe me when I say that I’m sorry to the dozen(s?) of you for having to live in radio silence for so long. There have been valid reasons…I got married, bought a timeshare, went to Las Vegas. Then I flew to Toronto and had a great Canadian adventure. I even tried (once) to write about it in a Week In Review column — on my phone from the plane, no less — and promptly deleted it by mistake like the technological immigrant that I really am. There’s also been my full-time job and if any of you know anything about college counseling you know that full is an understatement this time of year. Plus there are preseason workouts to plan, comedy routines to perfect and….a whole bunch of other bullshit.
As I sat on the toilet earlier today, I began to really see all of the things that I’ve used as excuses to be less than totally aggressive in chasing my goals. I’m guessing I’m not alone. There are always one hundred valid obstacles standing between our present selves and our desired selves. And this, of course, is before one starts counting things like baseball games, porn, the Food Network, or Monday Night Raw. One quickly realizes that there aren’t enough hours in the day to make everything happen.
So it’s time to make a choice.
And that is why I’m siting in a very uncomfortable chair in the Los Angeles Public Library and I can’t go home without this blog. Sigh, wrestling will have to wait a little while.
I have heard insanity defined as doing the same thing and expecting a different result. That “thing” is different for all of us, but I can certainly appreciate that I have to change my mentality about the projects I want to advance. A large part of that for me is just being
disciplined enough to carve out a specific time away from distractions. Perhaps if I do it long enough, it will become second nature. Truthfully, I’ve never really needed to be that hyper-focused or organized to get by. The problem is I have no desire anymore to just get by. I want my 40 acres and that G-d damn mule!
So, my friends, what is standing between you and your goals? I bet all those things are totally legitimate. I also bet that ultimately none of them will matter if you reach your mountaintop. I don’t know that to be true for a fact. I’ve never reached a mountaintop, yet. I’ve certainly had successes, but I crave much more. Quite frankly I’m just happy to finally be at the point where I can see the mountain that I want to climb. Since it’s brand new terrain, I’m going to listen to those who’ve climbed before. And right now they are telling me to keep my ass in the library until this post is done, then to find a specific time every day to write regardless of how I feel or who’s on first or what the weather is in Toronto.
One think I do know is that I’m going to have to start bringing a butt donut to the library with me.